coming out of my shell

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Hey guys, it's Anna a introverted ordinary girl just trying to get out of her shell. For years I've put off sharing my personal life with everybody because I was afraid of the stares, the odd looks and how people would treat me. For three years now I've been dealing with mental illnesses such as anxiety and depression and it hasn't made life easy but then again when is life ever easy? We all face trials and we all go through hard times but that doesn't mean that you can't still find happiness even through the darkest of days. I created this blog to share my own personal experiences throughout life but also to help others suffering the same illnesses to me. I found out the hard way that life isn't always gonna be easy and there have been times that I wish I could do it over again, but looking back I'm proud of how much stronger I have become today. Mental illness is not an easy thing to deal with and it definitely takes a toll on your life. It all began my sophomore year of high school, the way I starting distancing myself from people, feeling like I was out of place and it really made me notice who my true friends were. Out of all those people I've only had one remain true for me one person that always had my back and honestly that had a huge impact on me. It's never easy seeing the true side of people that you thought would be there for you but their true colors always slip out. Sometimes I wish it was easier but then I am reminded that we are given these trials for a reason to become stronger, powerful and true to ourselves. I always thought that I needed others surrounded by me for me to be happy then realized the only person that can make you truly happy in your life is yourself. The moment you realize people's opinions don't matter is the day you realize that you can do this on your own. As for my story it's still not over I am still recovering, I am still here and I will not let this storm overtake me.

 - Anna

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  1. BrianneFebruary 11, 2018 at 8:27 PM

    Beautiful! And so true, we are the only ones who can make ourselves happy.

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  2. UnknownFebruary 12, 2018 at 9:39 PM

    you are stronger than you realize anna. i am so much older than you (sigh) but i will share that your thoughts on friendship are very true. i can count on one hand the number of friends who have stayed in my life. friends come and go and you will find that there are certain people you will meet, and it might be just in passing, but there is a connection and although you don't see each other often they will be the one friend that is always there for you but then it seems you already know this:)

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  3. skookum jamFebruary 28, 2018 at 1:32 PM

    Miss Anna- I’ve got to agree with your sister. I’m much, much older than you...but I can count on one hand the number of true, life-long friends I have. I care about you dearly and love the occasional time I see you and your soft smile.
    It’s Sister Biehl

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