the voices within my head

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The voices within my head they make me happy, they make me cry, they make me anxious and most of all they make me weak. It feels as if it's a battle within my head that I cannot escape. Shots fire from each side anxiety and depression vs me. No matter how hard I try they never leave they're like a barnacle on a boat. I hate them, I hate these voices inside my head. My mind is so two-faced but it's clear who has won. And the winner is... depression!!! congratulations you get the award for most triumphant in degrading me. I wish you would go away but it looks like you've made a home. Robbed of my home you saw me as a weak prey. You've overstayed your welcome, there's the door please leave. You're like the monster under my bed but you're not just there at night you're here all the time. You put myths in my head tricking me to believe they're fairy tales. You're like the Hyde to my Hyde there is no Jekyll! There is no yin and yang you're just yin you bring some light in but darkness always follows. You let me have some good moments so I'll give you that. You push people away, you're always on my case and you never let me have fun you're my helicopter mom. Please just give me a break I've believed all you've said but you keep drowning me in water and I'm just looking for land instead. I keep saying I'm done with but I have a weakness of forgiving and I've always let you come back to torture me relentlessly. One day I'll be done with you and you'll just be in the past I never believed in happy ever afters but I'm willing to make this viewpoint last.

- Anna

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